Gratitude For Emptiness, My Online Gratitude Journal #25
March 5, 2009 by akemi · 10 Comments
I’ve been thinking and writing a lot about Ascension recently because I’m in it and I think it is affecting more and more people. Maybe you are one of those who are experiencing it, and maybe you will soon.
And if you think it is all rosy and fun, just more and more increasing joy . . . well, yes and no. The no comes from my ego that is still hanging around. . . (Photo by Mr. Greenjeans)
What it’s like to just be
So many – the majority – of our motivations are based on fear.
- You work hard because – you love your work? Or because you are afraid of losing your job?
- You save money because – you already have enough? Or because you are afraid of not having money at some time in the future?
- You are with your spouse because – you love him or her? Or because you are afraid of being alone?
- You take care of your health because – you love yourself? Or because you are afraid of being sick?
- You say YES because — you love the idea? Or because you are afraid of being rejected?
The list goes on and on.
And I’m finding it harder and harder to identify with the fear part. It’s not about criticism. I just find it hard to relate. Which leaves me in a strange unfamiliar place of little motivation. It’s good, but feels very weird to be here.
- Work hard? Why? I love my work, so I’m happy to do it, thank you. But at the same time, I have no desire to work long hours. And I don’t need to, either.
- Money? Oh, I have some money. Gratitude. And I know – or at least I guess – I can make money as I go.
- Romance? Yeah, that’s great! (I’m currently not seeing anyone, so this feels more like an expectation than choice.)
- Health? I’m in good health, and I’m grateful.
- . . . faithful readers of this blog know I have no problem saying NO to anyone . . . duh . . .
So being is like being in emptiness. I guess this is a temporary sentiment until my ego completely falls off. For now, I’m grateful I don’t need to push myself for anything. I am. Thank you.
What no past life means to my business
Awhile ago, I was talking with my long-time client of Akashic Record Reading. He had Ascension soul shift, and said something interesting.
“So I got a new soul. Then the reading and clearing I did for my former soul was . . . for what?”
I thought about this. Because if more and more people are getting Ascension soul shift, maybe he is right, we don’t need to heal our energetic issues from past lives. And if that is the case, I’m ready to fold my shop. I don’t know what I’d do next, but I’ll figure it out. I’m not going to do the service that is unnecessary.
Because I have some waiting list, I’ve had to think as I go. And it turns out my business is turning to fit to the new energy pattern of the Earth anyway. More and more clients are those who have had Ascension soul shift. They come to me to understand what the heck have happened to them, and to let their former souls move on.
I’m also learning from my Akashic Record Guides that some energetic issues, such as partial possessions, are best taken care of prior to Ascension soul shift. I’m still not sure if this is the absolute requirement to have Ascension, but at least it is very desirable and promotes Ascension.
So looks like my service is still in need. And I’m reviewing everything I do for potential update. The big picture, the energy of Earth, is changing, so a thorough review of all I’ve been doing and offering is in need.
The glimpse of the New World
I think our current energy pattern is so lopsided due to the fear we have collectively. When we drop these weird illusions and patterns, I think the world will see:
- Close to zero diseases and sickness, and therefore, little need for healthcare and healing (If you are in this industry, be prepared for eventual job loss)
- Extreme change in economic system. The majority of economic transactions will be done either in small local community by cash (think of farmer’s market) or globally through the internet with virtual payment system. Businesses in between, like Wal-Mart, that moves stuffs long distance unnecessarily, would go away. A lot of financial systems that promote credits would follow. (If you are in these industries, be prepared for eventual job loss)
- The majority of “employments” will disappear, and most of us will be working for ourselves, doing what we love and be good at. (If you are out of work, consider yourself to be having a head start. The faster you figure out how to take care of yourself, the better.)
- Fundamental change in marital system. Marriage and traditional family will still be a choice, but only one choice of many options.
Hmm. Sounds good to me. What do you think?
And today I’m grateful for the spring rain, the working computer and phone, my fresh carrot-apple-ginger juice, and cheesecake. (Sounds like the good and the evil of the food world are coexisting with me, huh?)
Who Am I?
March 4, 2009 by akemi · 22 Comments
“Who am I?” is the central question in life. What is your answer to this question, and how is your understanding helping you in life?
This article first examines various levels of self identity. Then it goes deeper to explore what “we are spiritual beings” really means. (Photo by Lucas Janin)
Will the true YOU please step forward?
We define ourselves in various ways:
1. I am (my name).
2. I am (my work position, social status, etc.).
3. I am (my life experiences).
4. I am (my thoughts, or the thinking mind).
5. I am (my soul or spirit).
#1 is just a label. #2, like “I am a sales manager.” or “I am a mother.” is just the role you are playing at this time. It’s pretty easy to see these are not the real YOU.
Some people are invested in their experiences and believe they are the sum or the result of their life experiences. “I was abused as a child and so I am incapable of building a healthy relationship. This is me.” or “I am an American and so I live this way.” But I don’t think human life is like a physics experiment. We have free will that allows us to go outside what our experiences define.
#4 is big. Someone said, “I think therefore I am.” If you don’t embrace the idea of the soul, I guess this is how you define yourself. Pretty obviously, you know you are not just the body you can see and touch. There is something within that does the thinking – your mind. So you are the mind, or the combination of your body and mind. (If you think the mind is just a function of the brain, then the mind is part of the body – still, you define yourself as the body / mind.)
Then there are those who believe in #5. I use to think this way, too. Our essence is the soul, or the spirit, that currently resides in the physical body. The thinking mind is only a tool. And when we die, the soul moves on, to eventually have another incarnation.
The idea seemed to work until I experienced Ascension soul shift myself.
Soul shifts and the Self
As Akashic Record Reading specialist, I read people’s soul records. Most people live with one soul for the entirety of his or her life. Or, rather, the soul lives its whole incarnation.
However, there are those who go through soul shifts. When this is the case, I can count exactly how many souls have been involved, the characteristics of each soul, and when the shift happened. And as I wrote in that article, soul shifting itself is nothing new. All varieties of soul shifts except the Ascension soul shift have been known for some time.
- Ongoing soul shifts
- One-time soul shifts, or walk-ins, including:
1) Reinstatement soul shifts
2) Complete possessions
3) Placeholder soul shifts
4) Special cases such as Pleiadean soul shifts
5) Ascension soul shifts
In each case, we can take one of the two perspectives to the question “Who am I?”
- I am the originally intended soul that was meant for me at birth.
- I am the soul I have now.
With ongoing soul shifts, there is one soul that was the originally intended soul. So although it was in the body only part of the time, we can say this is who he or she was meant to be. Alternatively, we can also interpret this situation that whichever soul that is in the body at the given moment is the self – at the time.
Similarly, in reinstatement soul shifts, we can say the originally intended soul that gets “reinstated” is the real you even though another soul was residing in the body for a while. It’s also valid to say that, when the other soul was residing in the body, that was you.
Complete possessions are sad cases. The originally intended soul gets kicked out by a negative soul. When this happens, I have to say the new soul is the you because there is no way to reverse the process.
Placeholder soul shifts are like reinstatement soul shifts but the first soul is a positive soul. So again, you are the originally intended soul. Or you can say the soul you had at the time is the real you.
How Ascension soul shifts differ from other soul shifts
However, Ascension soul shifts are different. With Ascension soul shift, the first soul is the originally intended soul. And the second soul is also intended – the shift is orchestrated somehow.
The repeatedly asked question about Ascension soul shift is “Why does this have to happen? What happens to the first soul? What happens to my spiritual development that I have accomplished as my first soul through many lifetimes?”
I sensed there was something bigger or higher than the soul that is still an individual, the ME, that was orchestrating these soul shifts. These soul shifts were not some random take over. At least the second soul knew the first soul and what was going on. But what is this “bigger or higher” something?
Here is my current understanding as I figured by communicating with my Akashic Record Guides.
The Source, the energy, and the soul
First there was the Source, the Source of all energy. The whole, therefore perfect, energy. Then it split part of it to create individualized forms of itself. Basically, it wanted to play. It was hard to play as a single existence ever, so it split itself to be many existences.
For now, let’s call these split energies “X’s”.
Some X’s became stars and planets. Most other X’s became residents of these star systems. Then they traveled around. Eventually some came to Earth, which is just another creation.
To live in the physical bodies on Earth, X’s split part of themselves to form souls in much the same manner the Source split itself to be X’s. Perhaps most X’s split out just one soul and watched over how it goes.
The soul lived in one body. When the body was done, the soul crossed over to the other side for a temporary rest, and eventually came back to live another lifetime. This went on and on for millenniums of time. All the while the X of the soul was watching over its progress.
Ascension is the new game
Recently planet Earth and its residents decided to work out a new game plan. We have gone through plenty of lifetimes and saw the various different sides of life. We have done enough of the “learning by contrast” game. More and more of us are reaching the point that we can possibly reach as the existing soul. So we are going to change the matrix itself. We are going to do this Ascension.
Ascension is about increasing the vibration rate. For many of us, the souls we’ve had were good souls that were intended for each of us at birth, but they can go up only to a certain level of vibration rate. So our X’s decided to upgrade. Each X created another soul from itself and sent it to us. This is Ascension soul shift.
Because the new soul originates from the same X, it is the same type, same background group and training. It just vibrates higher and has no physical past life.
Meet X, your Higher Self
Now the issue of terminology. This is where things get sticky because it’s quite possible that person A uses the term to mean something different from what person B means with the same term.
For me, X is my Higher Self. My Higher Self came directly from the Source, and it infuses part of it to form my soul in much the same way the Source infused part of it to form my Higher Self. My Higher Self can create many souls if it wants.
It’s like making photocopies. Any number of souls can come from the Higher Self. Once the soul is created and incarnates in the physical body, it gets its own experiences. Like you can write memos on one of the photocopies. We’ve got too many scribbles on our copies (souls) that we decided to start anew with a fresh copy.
Who am I really?
So there are higher levels of answers to the first question, “Who am I?”
6. I am (my Higher Self).
7. I am God, the Source, or – just, I am.
Does this make sense to you? It does to me, so I concluded my communication with my guides.
A note in communication with spirit guides
If you are interested in trying this yourself, here is a brief cautionary note. Spirits use your existing frame of reference to give you ideas. So the analogy you get may well be different from mine.
Plus they are quite practical in their teaching. They know there are levels of understanding. Say, Newton’s law of gravity may or may not work in Einstein’s world, but if your understanding of physics is high school level (like most of us), they are not going to mention Einstein. They know that would just complicate things unnecessarily. So they tell you the law of gravity as Newton figured it out. If you work for NASA, on the other hand, you may get a different response. Both are, in a sense, “right” answers.
The answers I received make sense to me and so it’s good for me. For now. When my spirituality evolves further, I might get a new answer that may seem to contradict to what I know now. Just a possibility.
Ascension is a process to be one with God, or to be God
So the Ascension process promotes higher awareness of who we really are. We are not just our souls that goes through many lifetimes. We are our Higher Selves that are looking over all these experiences.
Further, we are the Source. We are God, the Creator. The split part is essentially the same in quality with the original. It’s a smaller individualized version, but like a piece of holograph, it has all the power and information of the original.
It gets really hard to “know” who I am at this level. It’s like trying to see my own nose. Not by the reflection on the mirror, but trying to see my nose itself. We are not quite capable of doing this. Likewise, after rigorous examination of who I am, seemingly ironically, I reach a point where I say, “I just am.” Everything and everyone are part of me, appearing to be different for the fun of it.
How do you identify yourself? Are you using the power that comes from realizing you are the Source?
Review: Remembering Your Soul Purpose A Part Of Ascension By Karen Bishop
March 1, 2009 by akemi · 6 Comments
Soul purpose in Ascension
We have discussed life purpose on Yes to Me, but the “soul purpose” discussed in this book REMEMBERING YOUR SOUL PURPOSE: A Part of Ascension – SECOND EDITION
Earth is ascending and so are us as individuals
Ascension is a process. More and more people are coming to my Akashic Record Reading service because they read about the Ascension soul shift and recognize they are experiencing the same changes. As I wrote in that article, the soul shifts are happening partly because each of us have done our spiritual development and reached a certain point of spiritual growth, and partly because of the planetary shift that is affecting all of us.
(Just to be clear – Karen Bishop does not write about soul shifts. What I have to say about Ascension soul shift is entirely based on my personal experience and my observation at my practice. She does writes about significant changes a person goes through in Ascension in her another book The Ascension Primer
Ascension may also be a big fundamental change waiting for us. Perhaps when the individual changes reach the critical mass, something wonderful happens to Earth and to us. Maybe that is expected to happen in 2012. I don’t know for sure, but I’m hopeful.
What is your unique contribution to Ascension?
After we complete our learning of our own life lessons, life becomes about being. Your purpose is to be the authentic YOU and to express your natural spiritual gifts you have. This is immediately the best service you can ever make to humanity.
Karen Bishop’s book helps you narrow down exactly what this gift is and how it helps Ascension.
The book contains a lot of writing assignments and I did them all. I didn’t like her application of numerology (I mean, when I can read the Akashic Records into details, why would I need to categorize stuffs into 9 groups?), but I like everything else.
Your geographical home on Earth
One of the assignment I found interesting is about the geographical area we are drawn to. As I often write on this blog, I packed up and moved myself from Nashville, Tennessee to Portland, Oregon one and a half years ago after hearing the message in my meditation. At that time, I had never visited the Northwest. And the message was clear – it’s not Seattle, it’s not San Francisco, it’s Portland, Oregon. And while I love living here, I didn’t know why I had to come here.
Karen Bishop says each geographic area has its unique energy, much like each person has unique energy. And we are drawn to the area that resonates with our own energy. This accelerates our own spiritual evolution.
The mild, moist, and rather cool climate here is so nurturing to me. I just couldn’t handle the heat in Tennessee. And the cedar trees, so abundant in this area, remind me of integrity and solid growth with their straight vertical growth pointing to the sky. I love the hills around here that provide perspective, but not with too sharp harsh angles.
Does where you live resonate with who you are?
The New World after Ascension
I love the part where she talks about “Your One Hat”. She says that, in the New World after Ascension, each one of us will be wearing one hat, doing the one thing that we love to do and do so well naturally. There will be no obligation to do what is not ours to do – that will be done by someone who loves to do it. She writes:
“But for this particular time of creating the New World, you came with one gift and talent that was bigger and brighter than the others. Although you are capable of many things, this time that is now arriving will support you in contributing one very special thing, or in other words, wearing one very special hat. It is the hat that is left when you find yourself tired of wearing so many. It is the hat that you continually wear and come back to and the hat that fits the best and gives you the most comfort. It is the hat that you CANNOT not wear. It always seems to fall out of the closet and land on your head, time after time.”
That is your soul’s purpose in the New World.
My purpose in Ascension
My role and contribution is to raise the awareness through my writing. My Akashic Record Reading is helpful, too, but my real ambition is to reach a wider audience through my writing so that I can assist more people. I want to be published on the issue of Ascension and Akashic Records.
This is how I see the progress of Ascension: The very first runners have passed. However, not many people even noticed them. In a TV broadcast of a marathon, we know who is running first, but in a real life, the very first runners were so far off, hardly anyone noticed. They probably looked like they were straying. Let’s call these first wavers Group A, although they are so spread out they don’t look like a group.
Then Group B is coming. Even though it’s still a small fraction of the whole population, now it’s starting to look like a group, and we are becoming increasingly aware that there is a change going on. I’m in Group B, hopefully leading Group B.
My role is to pick the pieces of road signs Group A has left and make sense of them so that the rest of us can utilize them. I let the rest of Group B runners that we are on the right track and we want to keep going. I write and talk about these road signs and our progress.
My Akashic Record Reading service in Ascension
Sometimes members of Group B comes to me personally for assistance. Remember, although I call it Group B, it’s still a small group spread out pretty thin here and there. Members often wonder what the heck is going on around them and to themselves – why are they running, while most others they know seem to be sitting where they are?
This is my Akashic Record Reading service. While I still do plenty of past life readings, more and more readings these days are about Ascension soul shift. Clients need to know what happened to them and need help for complete transition.
Who are in Group C? It’s the broader population that are waking up. The line between Group B and C is fuzzy and fluid. When I have the honor to assist a person with my Akashic Record Reading, I consider Group B to be those who have had the Ascension soul shift and Group C to be those who are heading toward it.
Group C are those who are interested in personal and spiritual development, starting to run the marathon, but not quite up to the speed yet. The leading part of Group C can see Group B and wonder how they can speed up like them. Then they notice they may be carrying invisible baggage – like from their past lives. So they seek out my service of Akashic Record Reading to clear the baggage and jump start.
We all win when we join the Ascension movement
Now although I’m using the analogy of marathon runners for visual image, please note this is NOT a race. The objective is not about being the first, or to be in the first group. The objective is to run, to join the movement of Ascension, in your own way. Further, we all win when we reach a critical mass and usher in the New World.
There are a lot of people who haven’t started running yet. We want to inspire them to join. Because it’s actually so much fun to run. And the more people join the running, the better – we increase our momentum as lightworkers.
What are darkworkers doing? Some are discouraging people from joining the marathon. Some are hanging around thinking they can jump onto someone’s back. I don’t know what happens to them. That is outside my area.
Why it’s critical to raise the awareness
Most of us didn’t recognize the Group A runners as runners when they were passing. Because we didn’t have the awareness of the marathon going on. This is why I keep writing about Ascension. To raise the awareness. Experiencing something without awareness is like not experiencing.
Raising the awareness is about increasing Light. When Light increases, we notice the old non-working part of the existing system, both in the outwardly environment and in our own thinking and beliefs. So raising the awareness involves washing away this old part, such as the limiting beliefs and related fear. Just like real rain, this “let it rain and wash it away” process can be inconvenient and painful at the time. But just like the rain, it is actually refreshing and nurturing. It is an aspect of Love.
What comes so natural to you?
Writing is so natural to me. It doesn’t matter English is my second language. (Yeah, I keep making singular / plural errors, please correct them. I can’t let my fear of grammatical errors stop me. I need to go ahead and say what I have to say before I miss my meal again.) I’m writing when I have a bit of spare time. And then I look at the clock and wonder how several hours have passed. I never run out of material – I just can’t keep up with all the ideas that need to be written. They just well up in me.
Some say I am channeling when I write. I don’t know. This is how I always wrote. How do I know the difference between my own idea and the channeled idea? All I know is there are more and more to write.
As Karen Bishop says, we make out best and biggest contribution when we do this one thing that is so natural to us. I know this is true, and I also know this would feel paradoxical in this effort and action oriented world. Less effort. No pushing hard. Just be yourself – doing feels hardly doing because it’s so natural. It’s a natural extension of your being.
You have something that is natural to you. What is it? Are you letting yourself do it?
My vision
And here is my personal vision – when I complete this mission to raise awareness, to increase the vibration of many individuals and therefore contribute to the increasing vibration of Earth, I will be leaving for a new Universe, my new frontier, as the bird of Light.
